Well folks its been a while since I have written nearly three weeks that must be my longest yet. So whats been happening? Life I suppose is getting back to normality, no more chemo so my whole life is not planned around Vincents every third Thursday. Was great to wake up last Thursday and not have to go in for chemo. To be honest I never minded the going into chemo part as it was (in a weird Dee way) quite enjoyable it was when the last bag of it hit you for the next ten days I hated!
Have been feeling great the last few weeks and last chemo didn’t seem as bad as the other seven so that was a bonus. Have had a couple of great nights out, some fun long lunches, couple of shopping trips, a lovely spa break with my sis and a three-day break in Cork with the family. Not bad for a sick chick hey!! Sick? whose sick? Someone reminded me about that a while ago and said well you are sick Dee, I was a little taken aback I don’t consider myself sick. See now there’s a good question am I still sick? I know I still have cancer but I am hoping that will be taken out of me by the end of this month, then of course will be recuperating for a while after the operation and then loads of Radio Therapy etc. In my mind I am not sick, I have cancer alright though…….. was thinking earlier today and a few other times as well maybe I am not taking this seriously enough then I thought NO….. that means I would actually have to think about me having cancer and that’s the last thing I want to do. I must admit I have not once strayed in my mind that there would be any other result than a good one after my time with cancer. I’m still me just had two things growing within me which have been nearly nuked to fucking Timbuctoo!! I am also very mindful of people who have not been as lucky and people I know now that are fighting way harder than I am.
I am still very much in cloud cuckoo land most of the time what I mean is I suppose concentration and am very airy fairy (not usually like me). Also quite emotional all the time which again is not like me and maybe I put that down to the menopause which I was gladly given as a bonus with chemo (congratulations Deirdre yes you have won yourself eight rounds of chemo and yes that’s not all, as a bonus prize you get to go into early menopause too)! I feel outside of myself sometimes not the person I used to be and I am definintely not the same person that I was six months ago I do things now that I wouldn’t have done then – why? because I can because I should because I deserve to who knows I don’t question things any more but I certainly know now that life is not a dress rehearsal.
Before I forget or get carried away check out the new Man App Reminder for Breast Cancer way better to watch than read those leaflets with cartooned boobs!!!!
Remember the New Look competition I won with your help as you voted for me well we had that just before Easter. I will fill you in with all the details when we get the pictures we had a great time.
Just come back from a lovely three night break in East Cork, Youghal with the family was a good break and the kids had an absolute ball. The hotel left a lot to be desired and I was raging I left my belly tops and velour trackie pants for all occasions at home Youghal is a lovely area and we spent a good bit of time driving around Cork. On Saturday night no-one wanted to go to the hotel for a drink I was not impressed. Rebecca my six-year-old said I’ll go Mammy, so off we went, we both had a drink and there was someone playing on the keyboard and singing and loads of kids up dancing. I said to Beca “do you want to dance” she said “No I am not dancing by myself” I said “no with me” – her little face lit up with excitement we had three dances she was chuffed! See I am no longer to cool for school hopefully I never was!
Check out The Girls and Me on a Sunny Cork Morning!!
Next stop for me is my mascteomy operation on 23rd April this is when Cancerous Chloe gets the chop along with what is leftover of my tumours. At the same time they will try a reconstruction which will be a small boob that will be “pumped up” over a few months to make it bigger! Bit like going into the garage to fill your tyres Everytime I think about the operation I tell myself not to think about it and I dont want to think about it. I know it is something that has to be done and of course it will rid me of my cancer so thats what I focus on. On the day they will also remove the lymph nodes from my right arm so it will be a long operation, boob, reconstruction and lymphnodes around 8 hours in total! So its not just lobbing the boob off and saying here catch or playing piggy in the middle around the operating room with it.
One very important thing though will be happening before this. Celebrating nuking the tumour booze up this Saturday 13th April, Goat Grill, Goatstown. At this stage we have choice of both DJ and general area of a great band. Would love if you could join me for a beer – everyone is welcome the more the merrier!
Good things that have Happened
- A new friend of mine has found out that cancer is NOT in her bones!!!
- My cousin Kerri Featherstone from the USA is coming over for my booze up and staying a week – cant wait!
- Another friend of mine is nearly on her last chemo
- The kids are back at school – WHOOP WHOOP
- I’ll have a head of hair like Sinead O’Connor again this time tomorrow gone with the fuzz – have to shave three time before the real McCoy comes back
- Its (nearly) getting warmer!!
- Loads of people are coming to The Goat on Saturday for a drink
Thats if folks – delighted to be back writing again could have written all night! Hope to see you Saturday and if you cant make it don’t worry the REALLY BIG one is still to come!!!