Meet Floppy Fiona and Cancerous Chloe

Decided to share “my girls” with you to show you the difference between the two of them. Meet Floppy Fiona and Cancerous Chloe.

Must say they look way better when I had my hands in the air and they weren’t keeping my knees warm. Cancerous Chloe is now a totally different shape and sort of stands up on her own this is obviously due to the 7cm and maybe another 2cm tumour inside her! Boobs rising instead of falling at my age you would think was a miracle, not in this case :-(

Wanted to let women (and men who check their other halves boobs) that you are NOT just looking for a big lump in your breast or under your arm. Look out for physical changes as well.

As you can see from the photo above, the right one is now much smaller (would say its a good few inches smaller you can’t see from photo) and the nipple is really unusual, the side of the boobs look like a balloon after you let the air out – it looks really strange. When standing in front of the mirror you can really really see the difference between the two of them and this was really the alarm bell for me. As the doctor kindly told me back in Naas Hospital two months ago with four interns around me and me with my hands in the air with my bra strangling me “can you see the way the right breast is deformed” – thanks Dr Butt – just loving your bedside manner – then you all walk away and leave me there in the bed thinking Jesus came in for pain in tummy and go home with dodgy tit. All doctors should as part of their study do a module on being human.

In this photo to the right you can actually see the lump which is my cancer, right under my nipple. This was the start of my tumour. Also nipple is inverted and boob sort of being dragged to the left. Have had three kids, done my “bit” of breastfeeding duty so nipples always a little bumpy anyhow. Therefore to be honest just didn’t take any notice of it – I mean how often do we look at our own boobs? Never noticed anything at all until one day knocked into the bump under my nipple and holy shit that hurt! That is when I really noticed that there was actually a lump there. Was on my To Do List to get it checked out probably left it a few weeks – once got as far as Doctor reception but got a call and left. One day took a good look at the two of the and really really noticed wow there is something seriously weird-looking about the two of them. Bit like Laurel and Hardy just didn’t seem to be the perfect match.

Wasnt going to post this one as it is really not a nice photo but its clearer as to how they are shaped different – better post this blog now otherwise will chicken out! You think this picture is bad you should have seen the amount of boobs that were deleted :-)

So THIS is my cancer it wasnt that I found the 7cm tumour inside my boob (have no idea how to be honest I never noticed it). They do say big boobs big cancer and I suppose I was never a 32A :-)

So girls I have bared my boobs and floated (ha ha literally floated) them in Cyberspace to show you what to look out for. Loads of people asking me what they can do to help me out – would love it if next time you are at docs get him/her to take a quick look. To be honest I don’t care who you get to take a look whatever your into, hubby, wife, partner, dentist, milkman, principal of school or the local swinger! One thing I know about this shitty disease is I don’t want ANYONE ELSE TO GET IT it’s not nice and some days are good and some days are really bad and its one thing you can do without in life. So get feeling people PLEASE :-)

Funny thing about boobs. I always hated having big boobs, really hated it. Seem to spend most of my teenage and mid-twenties and thirties in tops that were way to big for me and didn’t show off my boobs! Would have had a reduction if funds had allowed me.

Now? Now I love the size of my boobs they are me and I think I would look weird with a small pair, would make me look unbalanced. Yeah right I know my brain is unbalanced but that’s always been like that!

When Cancerous Chloe gets the chop next year I did ask them what happens to Fiona? They said that they would “match” the old boob to the new boob as seriously they couldn’t fit a floppy boob back on could they? So looks like Floppy Fiona will be getting lifted up to match the new one. Also seemingly to “make” the new boob common procedure is a tummy tuck to take the fat off there for the new boob – so that’s a bonus!

For those following this blog and still have questions about boob reconstruction a new friend of mine Darina gave me this information which is really interesting. Breast Reconstruction

Check back in a couple of days to find out how my friends did on the Run After Dark in Dublin on my behalf last night – thanks girls – waiting on some more super photos from you :-)

If reading this via Facebook would ask if you could share the post so other women out there can see the photos and maybe have a better idea of what to look for.



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51 Responses to Meet Floppy Fiona and Cancerous Chloe

  1. Michelle Waters says:

    Fair play to u Dee… U amaze me more and more every time I read your posts! Well done xx

  2. Breda Waters says:

    Ditto what michelle just said. !love your humour..stay strong girl U CAN KICK THE SHITE OUT OF CANCEROUS CHLOE!!

  3. Anonymous says:

    You never cease to amaze us Deirdre. You are such an amazing women!

  4. Suzie goggins says:

    U r am amazing lady, because of u I had a mammogram and ultrasound today, my left boob became swollen and painful a couple of weeks ago. All is well thankfully it was swollen because I had damaged tissues from a bang I got, because of u I stopped ignoring it and went To docs on mon she referred me, thankfully I’m grand, I bet u r inspiring tons of women to get checked out for that alone u should b truly proud…. Xx

    • deefed says:

      Hi Suzie you have really made my day. Firstly so glad that all is okay with boob and secondly I am so glad that you went to the doctor to check it out – seriously that makes me so happy and all this worth while – xxxx

  5. Anonymous says:

    That is probably the most informative thing I have ever read on cancer.
    A. Re Dr. Butt…you might have cancer but he’s got to live with that name!
    B. if you would like your reconstructed boobs to rival Jordan I have plenty of ass and tummy fat you can have!
    So is it two chemo down and four to go…almost half way there.
    I think one of your running buddies lives near me on myrtle grove

    • deefed says:

      Think this is you Sinead? Yes Catherine lives up near you she has twin girls she was running last night. Glad you found it informative. Two chemo down six to go – or as someone said to me say 5 + 1 makes it easier :-)

  6. Anonymous says:

    Very informative Dee, you brave brave woman.
    Thank you !

  7. Anonymous says:

    You are extraordinarily frank and a truly wonderful lady. Wishing you lots of good fortune in yr future x

  8. Deirdre says:

    you truly are amazing :)

  9. laurapricey says:

    Dee, you are flippin’ amazing getting your boobs out on t’internet and everything! This blog is soooo informative and you’re an inspiration to us all, well done! xx

  10. Val says:

    Thanks so much for posting this, I took guts to do it, :-D

  11. Emilienne says:

    Incredible… you are just incredible and inspirational… I have two reconstructed boobs if anyone has any questions about that. Thank you Dee xx

  12. Jackie McEwan says:

    Well Dee I am flabbergasted and when you live with Al you get used to having your flabber gasted!! I’ve heard of getting your ” tits out for the boys” but this takes it to another level! It goes without saying that what you have just posted is very brave and gutsy, and I am honoured to know you. Here’s to better days ahead and a magnificent new pair of hooters!! love Jackie x

  13. Aislinn Murphy says:

    Thank you so much Dee.It certainly has me feeling and looking.

  14. Helen Light says:

    Well done for being brave and sharing. Checking my pair has just moved to the top of my to do list! X

  15. Anonymous says:

    Thk for thinking of all of us, gonna have a good check myself, you’re so brave and fantastic.

  16. Catherine says:

    Dee fair play to you very brave and true to yourself. Keep positive and you will come out the other side fighting fit

  17. what an inspirational and courageous woman you are. You are what every woman in this country needs right now…someone who tells us AND shows us what it is like to notice and see cancer !! You are great. I really hope your treatment goes well and that you make a 100% recovery. Off now to do some checking myself….<3

  18. Anonymous says:

    Your a very strong brave woman and you will beat this. i’m just coming out the other end of it thank God and could not believe how many friend’s i had that did not check them self’s (they do now). Good family, friend’s and a sense of humor help you through it and you sound like you have all 3.I called mine Buddy and i beat the crap outta him, it’s hard some day’s but a keep strong you can beat Chloe your stronger then she is. PS the tummy tuck is great :) .Stay strong and good luck.

  19. Anonymous says:

    LOL eat every thing while you can cause your gonna get day’s wen you can’t even look at food so stock up girl :) ‘ I lost a stone while having Chemo but making up for it now even wearing skinny jean’s LOL.

    • Deirdre says:

      Hi Janet – good to see it has its advantages after first chemo couldnt eat anything this one eating from Ireland and dont think I am losing weight – then again they need the flab for the tummy tuck!!1

  20. Sinead BQ says:

    You are just brilliant on so many levels – you are so generous with your time and information, you’re so direct, so funny, so honest and most of all a brilliant blogger ….Blogger of the Year goes to… xxx

  21. Nat says:

    Well done for having the courage to post this . I’m reading it after finding out only last month that my mum has breast cancer . It’s a horrible disease . I’m going to get tested for the gene . But it’s great to read this and see how different it can be and different things to look out for . I wish you all the best throughout your chemo & pray for a full recovery .

  22. Mairéad says:

    This blog always amazes me Dee, you’ve such a great fighting spirit and great concern for others too. To put “the girls” on display to help others just goes to show how selfless, considerate and thoughtful you are in the face of such adversity. I found out today we’re sharing a page in the calendar and couldn’t be prouder to share it with someone so special.

  23. Such an informative post, you are amazing x xx

  24. Soraya says:

    The amount of positive support you are getting must so encouraging for you Dee. It’s so important for women to support each other as we really understand what that means. I think showing the pictures of the breast with cancer is so helpful for everyone so we can learn from it and keep an eye out for changes. Sending you even more love heaped on top of all the others x

  25. Anonymous says:

    you are an inspiration Dee……

  26. Anonymous says:

    Stumbles upon this blog while searching info about breast cancer. Wanted to wish you all the best, Dee.

  27. Anonymous says:

    Ooops, sorry, that’s meant to say ‘stumbled”.