How do I feel? emmmmmm not sure – excited, in shock, reality has landed. To be honest, really honest, not scared about doing chemo at all – the actual sitting there and taking the chemo in etc. Bit scared of how I am going to feel afterwards. I don’t do sick well! If I was the sort of person that got sick with a hangover would never drink – that’s how much I hate being sick (physically sick I mean) nearly get a panic attack if I think I am going to get sick. However loads of people go through it without being sick – so lets hope thats me!!
The urgency of it all is a bit scary to be honest – however the quicker I get started the quicker I finish!
Weird things go through your mind was really hoping to get started at soon as possible – then was thinking Ah Crap its a big party for my brother Colly retiring from the force on Friday – will I feel okay? I certainly hope so as this was gonna be the last big bash until I have to start behaving myself for a change! The Thin Lizzy guys who are really really cool are playing again so reckon will be still up to do some air-guitaring and of course still have my long hair to do some head banging! Couldnt do that with a wig!
By the way just writing whats running through my head – sick, hair, Colly party, chemo, wig blah blah blah
Meeting the nurse on Monday to go through everything to do with Chemo also having an echo cardiogram – obviously to check my heart is ok. I know it is sure its a big one
Well that’s it folks – I’m stepping into the boxing ring
COME ON YOU BASTARD I AM READY AND WAITING
Ring Size Seats now being sold – all proceeds go to my Celebratory Piss-Up this time next year!!!!!
Thanks all if you have read this far!!